i) List ten things you want to say to people but you know you never will
ii) Don't say who they are

1. i don't wanna see you this way, i hope you get well soon and i know you will :)
2. i hate you, but at the same time i love you because i know that now you're trying so hard to make things okay for everyone again. its just those things you did that ruined everything, and sadly, they can't be undone. i wish you had another chance too.. but now, even i can't help to pick up the pieces anymore. one thing's for sure, i'll miss you when i finally have to go.
3. i hate your ego, like seriously..
4. i'm really sorry for everything that happened, and thanks for being an awesome friend even during that short span of time. i had the time of my life :)
5. i don't know you anymore, its like we're in 2 separate universes which are irreconciliable. anyhow, i hope you're fine and maybe, just maybe, if you have the time to spare, i'd love to talk to you again :)
6. you make me smile, please stay for awhile noww :)
7. you are the best anyone could ask for, really. i admire you for that immense strength you have in you and thank you for all that you've done for me and the moments you didn't give in just because you love me. i wonder what i'd do without you
8. my wish is that we will all be closer again, just the way we used to be.
9. its been quite awhile, and i still feel weird when i see you around. =/ just really sorry for being the bitch i was.
10. i don't want you to go, not until i know that you'll be alright.

:)

everything sounds so angsty up there, but all the "i love you"s and "thank you"s i wld love to say to the freakz and yl and susan and etc, they don't fit under the category of "what i know i won't say".

OKAY BACK TO ARAB-ISRAELI CONFLICT. tooooodles.